Dear....
Its been such a long time since I've really had the chance to talk to you. Alot has changed in my life and now more then ever I need your support. I've weighed the pros and cons of discussing this with you because I know it will without question it will change the dynamics of our relationship. Traditionally we have shared everything and have no secrets and I value that tremendously but I've kept this from you for fear of rejection. I know I should talk to you directly but I can't stand to see the hurt that it is indeed gonna cause you. The most important thing I can say is I don't want you to feel obligated in any way. If you don't wanna call, then don't. If you want to end things, then end it. I only want you around if you want to be. See now is the time to determine who is real and who is not and because you are the closest I have to start with you. Your acceptance means the world to me but only if it's true. I know you've thought about things as I have and maybe it is time to go our separate ways. I am not trying to trap you into staying and I'm definitely not trying to pressure you into loving me if you don't. As I write this letter I can barely see whats on the page because my eyes are filled with tears and I can barely type because my hands are shaking. One way or another its time, I just need to know where we stand. I have a feeling it won't make me feel any better because nothing will change. I'm sorry if I disappoint you but I can't let you down anymore then I have myself. By the time you read this we will have talked and I'm not sure what I will have gained or lost. One thing I will say is if this is our last true correspondence know that I have only a few expectations. Be honest, be real, and be true whether we move forward together or apart. No matter which it is nothing will change our past, and I thank you for that.
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